It was a cold, winter afternoon and the tears would not stop falling down my cheeks. Another relapse... More hospital visits... No guarantee that life was ever going to turn around. In that moment I felt the weight of our world on my shoulders.
Be strong. Be brave. You can do this. You'll get through.
Reminders like this surrounded me constantly, but they all felt weak, eventually collapsing under the weight of their flimsy foundation. Even though I desperately wanted to be, I was not strong or brave enough to hold our life together on my own.
Admitting that is like sharing my deepest, darkest secret - something I never want to see the light of day. You see, I wanted to be the strong one. I needed to be! Who else was going to pick us up? For a while, I thought that I could do it all so I pushed my limits to a breaking point before realizing that living on my own strength will never be enough. I couldn’t heal Derek, fix our finances, and maintain the house plus multiple jobs all at the same time.
At first this realization was crushing, but slowly over time my attitude turned from bitterness to joy. Our burden did not need to be carried alone!
“My health may fail and my spirit grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever.” Psalm 73:26
These words leapt out of the pages of my Bible when I first read them. When all else fails, God is still there. He who never fails, is all powerful, and full of grace. David fully embraced this throughout his entire life. The Psalms are filled with his honest thoughts and cries out to the Lord for strength through it all.
When all else fails, He is our strength.
When all else fails, He is our comfort.
When all else fails, He is our peace.
When all else fails, He never will.
Reading the entire chapter of Psalm 73 was incredibly freeing, and I encourage you to read it today too. I found myself saying “YES! I can relate SO much!” over and over again.
Verse 26 stood out to me so much because of the hardships we have faced over the last few years so I created a print that I would love to share with you. While they last, all orders of any amount will receive this 5x7 print for free as a special bonus! This is my way of saying no matter what journey life has you on, no matter how big or how small, you do not have to walk this path alone.