Can I tell you something? I’ve been struggling lately. Like a bird without a song, struggling with my words and what I should or shouldn’t share with you.
Because you and I live in a world of how to's, quick advice, and "Pinterest perfect" lives. We see the posts on Facebook that show everyone else's life highlights. We see the Instagram posts full of fresh cut flowers and faraway travels. We hear the stories of home renovations and successful pregnancies that come out of what appears to be thin air.
And we wonder..
What am I doing wrong?
Is there something I'm missing?
Why is life so incredibly hard?
Friend, I'm here to remind you that you are not alone.
No one's life, no matter how wonderful it looks on the outside, is perfect. Behind the little squares and perfectly crafted words are real feelings, tears, struggles, emotions, challenges, and so much more. We just don't see the hardships unless we choose to take down that invisible wall that separates dreamland from reality.
At the beginning of this summer, I took the leap into full time creative business. With an entirely new website and a whole lot of dreams, I jumped. And let me tell you, it was a big one.
I never thought it was going to be easy, but I was entirely unprepared for the barrage of emotions that came my way once reality had set in. The stability of the job I had held for two years was gone. All my words disappeared and fear gripped my heart. The “what if’s” were unbearable, holding me in one spot unable to move in any direction, especially forward.
So I stopped sharing. The hopes and dreams for this space were put on hold in order to dive in and wrestle with God. At the time, “failure” could have been branded across my forehead and I would have believed it. I finally had accomplished what I had been working years to achieve, but instead of reveling in joy and success, all I felt was lost.
I wanted to quit so many times because the instant success, whatever that may be, was no where to be seen and waiting seemed like a paradox when an impossible mountain toward success loomed in the path ahead. Now, months later I can see that “failure” opened the doors for my heart to be tended, projects to bloom, and even bigger dreams to take root.
This is not the end of the journey friend. It’s only the beginning. Each step in the process, each seed planted, has the potential to help us live in full bloom no matter what season of life we are in.
PS: After hitting publish on every single blog post, I wait eagerly to hear from you! So if you'd like to say hello, leave a comment or hop on over to Instagram to send me a little note! My favorite part about this Encouragement Community is knowing that we are in this fight for life together :)